God is good!
Sometimes you wonder how God works things out in his grand scheme of things. Usually you never know where He's taking you but then there are those moments that you see a glimpse of where things are going, or why they happened a certain way.
Yesterday I had two very minimal moments but I saw how if I had handled it the way I wanted to I could have really screwed up His plan. Well you can't really mess up His plan, but you can humiliate yourself. I came very close to humiliating myself but instead I had to humble myself and admit my wrong and ya know.... I'm soo glad I humbled myself or I would have felt so foolish. And believe me there is a difference between humiliating yourself and humbling yourself. I'm also learning the benefit of holding your thoughts to yourself and thinking about what you're going to say before you say it. This thinking before you speak really makes you keep your mouth shut a lot! hehe
I also got blessed yesterday. Well I won't see the benefit till Friday (payday!). I won't know exactly how much till then but my raise took affect and will be in my last pay period so beginning in February! I'm sooo happy. I can't wait.
Things with the benefit dinner for Lesotho are all coming together amazingly! Things are just falling into place. I can't wait! I mean we're really pushing it to be completed by the dates specified but God did a miracle with the parking lot sale, I know He'll do the same for this!
I've also had my ex on my mind a lot. I hear he's engaged and I'm curious to who he's going to marry. I think about the guy I am currently interested in but am still feeling out the waters and I realize that there are people that just seem better for you then others. My ex was definitely someone that I *wasn't* supposed to be with. I get so much more out of the person that I'm now seeing it's amazing to compare the two. I spent 3 years with my ex and only months with my current person and I've gotten so much more out of it, emotionally and literally. My ex left me with a debt of a ridiculous amount and when approached about it he said I deserved to pay it off. Of course this was said in the heat of anger but to this day I still have not seen any payments. Where as the person I'm seeing now gives me everything! I don't ask for it, he gives it to me. I say I hope to get something someday and the next week I have it from him. It's just odd. And I wonder if my ex and his fiance' work better and he's more willing to give to her then he was to me because they are better for eachother. I can only hope that's the case. Because everyone should feel as spoiled as I do. :) I'm really not trying to bag on my ex. I just realize that some people work better together.
Well I guess I should get going.
posted by Charity at 2/17/2004 08:04:00 AM 
