I am at lunch on a Monday afternoon. I'm kind of bummed that my weekend is over and am having a hard time focusing on work. I was fairly busy this weekend. I finally slept in Saturday though which was nice. I went shopping with my mom for a semi-formal outfit for the benefit dinner this Saturday. She is letting me put it on her Lane Bryant card so I took her out to lunch. I ran into a couple friends, one being Tambi who used to be my manager at Lane Bryant and she invited me to come by Lane Bryant Sunday because it was friends and family day and I could get 25% off! So she said to go and find what I wanted but to come back Sunday to buy it. I was so surprised!
I also ran into Matt Bodell! It was soo cool. I miss his friendship so much. I used to take pictures of his band ALL the time! I'll have to see if I can dig some up. Either way he got married and he and his wife taught in China! But they came back for Christmas but I thought I missed them, but I guess she's having some back problems so they decided to stay in the United States temporarily until they had her surgery. But then she found out that she's pregnant so they are staying here indefinitely! That's sooo awesome! I guess the sucky part though is that they won't be able to do the surgery till the baby is born. But it was great to see him again.
Anyways, I went to Lane Bryant and the first thing I picked up and tried on it what I bought! I love it! It's a black pant suit and under the jacket I have a hot pink tank top! With a cool necklace I'm totally stylin! ;) I'll have to take pics cause my sister is doing my hair and I'm getting my makeup done :) I am REALLY looking forward to our dinner!
So that night I ended up going to hang out with Sam for a bit. I got home before midnight.
Sunday I went to church and afterwards had a long meeting about our dinner. Last minute details. Then went out to eat with my mom, sister and her family and ended up at Lane Bryant to pick up my clothes. My old manager got my sister to apply for a card to get me even more money off and then I decided to pick up a couple more pants for the trip since it was going to be cheaper then if I waited till closer to the time for me to leave. I got everything for 40% off! It was great. But I was depressed with my weight. I have gone up in size and it was depressing to me. Even my sister mentioned it and of course I am already insecure and ended up crying about it. I got home to have a misunderstanding with my dad that made me literally bawl! I had to wash my face and redo my makeup before going to see the Passion with the youthgroup. But looking back I kinda wonder why I did. I knew I was going to cry seeing the movie!
I get to the theater an hour and a half early and there is already a line. We sent someone right after church to pick up the tickets and it was sold out till the 7:20 showing and I showed up around 6pm. Either way I got there at a good time. I watched the movie and practically started crying during the opening scene. But of course I was in tears for practically the whole movie. I got home and talked with my mom about all the different moments. And since my break is almost over I can't really break it down. But it was an overwhelming movie. I get to see it again with Sam. I'll be praying for him throughout this week so that maybe his heart will be open to what he's watching. Either way at first I wasn't sure if I could stand watching the movie again but now I know I can. And it will be good. This has definitely been an impacting moment in my life.
My break is over. :( Gotta get going. I'll write more later if I get a chance. The other thing I was going to say was when I woke up this morning my eyes were ALL puffy! It was pathetic. I realize now that I'm getting old. My body doesn't bounce back so easily after a rough night, emotional or physical. But my eyes have finally mellowed out but when I close my eyes it still stings and they are still red and tender. I cried A LOT yesterday.
Well gotta go. Bye
posted by Charity at 3/08/2004 01:05:00 PM 
