I'm at work, and should be working but I just have to get some things off my chest... I had a rough night last night and I'm still feeling the affects of it this morning. I had a break down last night, or break through, whatever you want to call it. I don't like where I'm going and know that there is a lot that needs to change. I feel the need to explain that when I say I had a breakdown it doesn't mean in the literal sense. I mean that I just had an emotional night and cried, not that I'm seriously having a dictionary definition of a breakdown. With that said...
On Sunday at church I felt God calling me to a 40 day commitment. Commitment of what? Well a lot of things, but mostly committing to spend time seeking Him in the evenings. I want to pick up the challenge of reading "A Purpose Driven Life" which is a 40 day process. I want to journal my thoughts and things that God is telling me. I also want to worship and spend time with Him and seeking His will for my life. And I believe that I need to start as soon as possible.
Last night was just a realization that it needs to take place sooner then later. My priorities are out of whack and I need a change. I cried and it felt good to cry out and get support. Sam encouraged me to start the 40 day process right away. He wouldn't let any of my excuses get in the way. He had a come back for all of them. I appreciate his support in this because it will mean that we won't get to hang out as much.
posted by Charity at 4/27/2004 07:48:00 AM 
