So I'm at work. I've been wanting to blog but haven't found the time to sit down at my desk, either at work or at home. I feel different these days. I am in a completely different place then I was last year. So much happened last year and I was listening to Counting Crows last night on my commute home (the first commute in a LONG time that I was playful and full of life, driving and listening to music) and heard this line...
A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
And realized that this year really is better than the last. So many things have been going on in my life. I feel changed. I feel like I'm still changing.
- Work is less stressful these days, we finally have everything caught up and the extra help when I need it.
- I've come to grips with my dog Chacha being gone. Last night I found myself missing her a lot and remembering how hard it was to say goodbye. That was one of the toughest decisions I've ever had to make.
- Having to move from a place I lived in for 10 years was really rough, but I've gotten situated at the new place. I have a few boxes left over of paperwork that I haven't gone through yet. I find that I like the new place better. In the end it was more of a blessing.
- I had a lot of personal struggles last year. Actually even in the beginning of this year. I know I stated that I felt like I was in a bit of a depression. The roughest part of this year was February and March and I could say they were residual issues from last year that I hadn't dealt with and was forced to. It was really tough on me. But I believe I've become a stronger person because of it.
- My weight is getting under control. I had an off week last week but am back on track this week and have lost another pound. So a total of 11 pounds. It feels good to finally be doing something about my weight. Though at times I get discouraged at how long it will take to be where I want to be. But in the end I should look at the fact that I've started something and this time I'm keeping it off!
- The Lord Jesus Christ is really present in my life right now. From being healed within an instant of my back going out to the vision I had in a dream. I feel closer to Him. He is doing so much in my life.
Well I just got called into a meeting with my supervisor. He seemed worried about how happy I am in this company. Apparently there was a day when I told the CEO that I didn't have a project done but was always told it wasn't my priority and if he wanted it to be to talk to my supervisor. I guess this wasn't the right thing to say. Though I was told if he came to me with a project direct him to my supervisor. I think the biggest frustrations is the lack of respect in my response. I'm sitting here trying to figure out how I spoke that was disrespectful? Other then having a frustrating day I don't see how I was disrespectful. I guess I just need to be more careful in the future. Other then that, the meeting was good. I hadn't realized how worried they were that their lack of keeping promises (i.e. moving me into sales) were making me want to leave the company. I guess it means that they don't want me to leave if they are worried that I'm unhappy right?
Anyways, I should get back to work.
posted by Charity at 6/17/2005 11:45:00 AM 
