I'm not in the best of moods today. I had a lot come down on me last night and I didn't sleep well. I woke up tired and cranky. I got to work and got a call from my friend. She challenged me on something and it bugged me because she was right. I hadn't realized that something I did was not biblically right. The intentions were not to do wrong in any way and the situation was totally innocent. I kept defending my actions because the other parties involved were doing worse. That doesn't change the fact that what I did was still out of line from what the Bible tells me. So now I'm beating myself up even more over it. I'm struggling to be bubbly and upbeat. I'm thankful my parents are coming home tonight.
I feel so far from God right now. I haven't been seeking Him as much or at all. I really feel emotionally drained. I think I'm so physically tired that my emotions are getting the better of me. I need rest. I want to go into hiding. I need some solitude. Ironically enough I have been on my own a lot the last few weeks, housesitting and all. But it hasn't been relaxing. I've been non-stop on the go. I get home, water the grass, and feed the cats/dogs/rats/hamsters, clean their pens, go to sleep get up and do it all over again... Thank God my parents are coming home tonight.
So ok... something funny did kinda just happen. hehe A solicitor came through the door at work and Sam saw him coming into the office from my desk. Sam walks up to the guy and says something like, “we don’t buy from people that are illiterate or don’t read signs” (we have a “No Soliciting” sign on the front door). The solicitor says “oh I’m not illiterate I have a genius IQ”. HA! Sam retorts, “if you’re such a genius why didn’t you read the sign that said no soliciting?” The Solicitor says “Oh I missed it” and at this point Sam is walking away and laughs and says “just get out of here”. It was hilarious because I couldn’t see his face and barely could hear what was being said but I could see Ronda’s face, her mouth dropped open in shock and amuzement of Sam’s boldness. So now that was a good laugh, the stress is slightly relieved and I have to get back to work.
I'll update more later
posted by Charity at 7/12/2005 11:12:00 AM 
