Sam just left my house in his packed truck... We were both blubbering and trying to just know that we really are only a phone call away... My eyes hurt from all the crying. I wasn't sure how I was going to feel. It's been coming for so long I thought I was numb and would be numb until a day or so later. But nope... After helping him pack up his truck early this morning I went home, showered and he was heading up from saying his goodbyes to David and Tony. As soon as I saw him I was crying. I guess I realized this was it... He was leaving California. I am tearing up right now... Choking back tears. I love him. I'm going to miss him. We have already made plans to get me out there in the next couple months if not sooner. I so desperately want him to be here but I know this is something he needs to do. I just hope that the distance doesn't tear us apart. Right now it seems impossible. I think I'm going to go watch a movie and try to get my mind off of things.
posted by Charity at 12/26/2005 10:05:00 AM 
