So it hasn't even been a month since Sam left and I've definitely started to feel the effects of his absence. Especially since this weekend he has been working insane hours and calls when he can spare 5 minutes here and there. Hopefully things will mellow out since the main part of the project they were working on is finally over.
I have been really sad today. I can't seem to shake it. I took a walk after lunch and the desperation in my heart lifted a little. I'm not sure what exactly I am struggling to let go. There are a lot of things going on in my life, but I hadn’t thought they have been that overwhelming. I guess after some time it becomes too much for me to keep contained.
I am driving up to Sacramento at the end of this month (1/27/06 – 1/29/06) for my friends wedding. She lives in Alaska so imagine my surprise when she told me she was getting married only a few hours away! I wouldn’t miss it for the world! I haven’t seen her since I was about 20! (Quite a few years) So that should be an adventure. My sister Heidi will be going with me. I’m really looking forward to it.
Talking about how long it’s been since I was 20, it turns out in June of this year it will be 10 years since I graduated high school! I only had 3 other classmates that year. So we’ve all talked about getting together. I’m not exactly sure what we would do. Maybe a dinner, bring out the old photos and meet the significant others (though we’ve all met already). Rachel and I are still best friends. We’ve been best friends since I was 14. Sure there have been times where we’ve drifted apart but in the end come back to being the best of friends. Andie and I had lost touch and talk every so often. I recently called her for a PartyLite party I was having and we ended up having some time to hang out and go to dinner for the first time in a while! I see Shawn every so often when I would go to the home school graduations for family and mutual friends. His mom was the principle of the home school group. I should scan our graduation pictures. I guess that’s something we should do… Get pictures 10 years later and compare! That could be scary and entertaining all at the same time.
Well in the time it’s taken me to compose this post my gloominess has been lifted. It has been some time as I only write while waiting for the customer to answer my call, or waiting for the sales reps to bring me the contracts they need me to add rates for. But I’m still grateful that my mood has lifted. I hate it when I can’t seem to shake it off. Walking always helps. I’m glad Sam suggested it. Gets the blood pumping and it’s such a beautiful day today I enjoyed the fresh air. I guess I should finish up work. Tonight I’m going to a candle party, one of the many bookings off of my show that I am now indebted to go to.
posted by Charity at 1/16/2006 04:21:00 PM 
