Weigh in - 3/17/06
I've lost another 4 pounds, that’s a total of 10 pounds! And I've lost 9 1/2 inches throughout different parts of my body! I've gone down a pant size! I'm wearing my depeche mode t-shirt I bought at their last concert November 2005 that even trying to stretch, wouldn't fit me, and now it does!!!! I seriously did a victory dance this morning! hehe I had to stop myself from whooping because everyone else was still asleep! I'm thrilled! No, I'm ecstatic! This is my third week on the diet… THIRD week! I can’t wait to lose 10 more… Then I will be smaller then I have been in over 2 years! That’s my next goal. But for now, I am so happy. I can’t stop smiling. I thought for sure maybe a pound or two… But 4! Cool!
This seriously has been an amazing experience. I know that the only reason I’m doing so well is because of the strength of God. I prayed and asked Him to help me overcome my bad eating habits. And suddenly something clicked. I’ve always been afraid of failure. I have failed diets since I was 8 years old. I’m still afraid of failure, losing sight of my goals, and gaining all the weight and then some back. But you know what? God was able to help me take control of my finances. I realized that as out of control as they were I am now debt free as of this payday! And I was only able to do it with God’s strength. He did it, not me. He somehow made extra money come my way, whether it was helping my car stay in working order, or side jobs, or mistakes in my works calculations of vacation time before the bankruptcy. He helped things last longer so I wouldn’t have to spend so much money on fixing or replacing things. Satan is the devourer of money. I have been obedient with my finances and seeking God’s wisdom in how to handle them and I truly believe he blessed me because of it. So now I am trying to give my weight and eating habits over to Him. I pray daily that He will give me the strength and focus because I’ve tried for years on my own strength and understanding and have failed. It’s only in Him that I can accomplish losing weight and keeping it off. I have to give thanks to Jesus Christ for getting me this far! I am truly excited and hope that I never forget my focus or that I won’t try to take it on myself. It’s so nice to be able to pray about it, give it over to God and have it work out. I find that it’s hard to hand things over to God. Sometimes I think just saying it works, but it doesn’t. You have to genuinely body, soul and mind hand whatever it is over to God. I still haven’t figured out the trick. All I do is pray that I won’t try to pick it up again and do it on my own.
posted by Charity at 3/17/2006 09:08:00 AM 
