Life is good! God is good! I just read my friend Jame's (Mopmonster) livejournal and he's doing really well. It made me reflect on all that has happened in my life so far this year. I cannot say as much as he has. :) But I could relate to a lot of what he was feeling/sharing.
I am working towards getting over my ex. He and I are still good friends. We still care deeply for each other. And it looks like he will soon be in the dating scene again. I personally do not feel ready but that in itself feels good. I have had my fair share of time being single and I am the kind of person that enjoys the single life (not all the time but I'm ok being alone). I miss having someone to share my life with. And since Sam and I were so much more in love then any other relationship I have ever been in, it is hard to let it go.
I may be moving in with my brother Brian. That will be a dramatic change since I've lived with my parents since I was born. hehe The ironic thing is, we are thinking about taking over the rent to my parents place because they need a bigger place for them, my sister and her two kids. So really I won't be moving except for maybe to another room. I think it should be pretty interesting. I am looking forward to seeing how it will all work out. To be honest, I have always felt a hint of shame that I still live with my parents. I mean how could I complain? I got the master bedroom, only paid a couple hundred a month to stay there, and my mom did my laundry! So that always outweighed the shame. But being that I'm 28, not married, never lived outside of my parents house (and also couldn't afford to either) I just felt like I hadn't quite grown up yet. I have been a late bloomer in every aspect of my life; looks, love (I had my first kiss when I was 20! And even then it wasn't love) and well getting out on my own. But I could tell I'm ready because every time I'd go shopping I'd have all these dreams of having my own place to decorate, and living out on my own. I mean, living with my brother won't be exactly what I consider on my own. But it will be different. The question now is will I be able to afford it.
So that said, I am looking for a new job. I have been afraid to share it as I am not making it public knowledge to my current employer for obvious reasons. There are plenty of reasons why I want another job. But the main reason, I'm sick and tired of the commute and with gas prices the way they are I am needing a raise to be able to continue working here! I would love to get a local job. I have been daydreaming of all that I can accomplish with the extra 10 hours a week that is not devoted to the road!
If that takes place I have a lot of plans. I am anxious to get back to school and get my BA. But working a 40 hrs + work week, and commuting I have found it difficult to figure out where I can fit school in, let alone what school I can commute to. I thought about finding a job close to Cal State San Bernardino so I can take night classes after work. But I have decided I would like to take the Business Administration program through Azusa Pacific at VVC. And again the concern I have is, can I afford it?
Another plan I have is buying a new car and since I have fallen in love with the new honda civic I am going to attempt to save money to get one. We will soon see if that will work out. At this point I won't be buying a new car unless I get another job that pays what I make here. The reason I will get a car then is because the long standing I have with my current job should help with my credit. I wouldn't want to wait till I have the new job to get the car.
This last weekend was insanely busy! I had a lot of fun though! But it will take more time to discuss that and I think this is good for now.
posted by Charity at 5/03/2006 07:44:00 PM 
