Today is a rough day. Jesse flies right into my face in everything that I touch, say, hear or think. I have found that getting settled in to my new place has been a welcomed distraction to dealing with my grief. There are times I am ok. There are times I'm not ok. This morning... I'm not ok. The last couple of days I've been hearing a lot about Jesse and I keep wishing he was still here so I could talk to him. *sigh*
It probably doesn't help that I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off and going to bed WAY past my bedtime and waking up early. After a while your body and emotions just can't take it any more. I haven't been taking any time for my devotions with God. And I know I need to. I need to make the time and not just try to because it will help.
So... I have no internet at the house as of yesterday. I was in between the dsl we had hooked up to my parent's line (which they took when they moved) and the cable which was supposed to be installed Saturday but is getting installed today... hopefully.
Today my brother saw the place for the first time since I have been setting stuff up. I asked how he liked it and if it was too girly for him. He says it's alright, but doesn't like the throw pillows for the couches. If that's all he's complaining about I've done a good job! Hehe He is at the house waiting for the cable to get installed and he brought a few things from his place. I guess he won't be up here for another week or so.
I have decided to have a BBQ to unveil my new place but I know it will have to be a couple of months down the road. And in a couple of months it'll be my birthday. So I've decided to throw myself a BBQ/Birthday Party in early September (more details to come). This way it'll give me a goal to strive for and give me enough time to get my place together.
I finally bought myself a scale. I took my mom's scale home with me to get an idea of the difference (because every scale is different) and it looks like my new scale says I'm 5 pounds heavier then my moms scale does. I haven't been focusing on my weight. I know I've gained a little weight, but I will give myself a week to get back on track and then weigh in.
Well I am at work and should get back. But I will leave you with a lighthearted image of my time with my cousins at Universal Studios (one the Jurassic Park Ride.
Top Row:
Brian (brother), Bailey (nephew), ME!, Kenny (married to Kerry), Kerry (cousin)
Bottom Row:
Heidi (sister), Megan (neice), Clint (cousin, the one that makes me LOL!), Joey (cousin), Nate (married to Joey)
posted by Charity at 6/08/2006 12:06:00 PM 
