Well I've just been laid off from my job at linkLINE Communications. I was called into the office this morning and let go. I have gone through a series of emotions. Right now I am ok. A few moments ago my eyes were filled with tears… Not crying but glossy. It’s scary and yet exciting! Odd, I know.
I feel this was a God thing. He knew I wanted out and He also knew I wouldn’t do it on my own. I keep thinking of the benefits of the timing! I had a few jobs at the school district I wanted to turn in an application for and was trying to figure out how to tell my supervisor I was going to be late.
I hate that I’m not sure where my money is going to be coming from. I got a severance package; so I have a little money coming in for the next few weeks, but not a lot. I applied for unemployment. But I also know that God is in control. I am scared, and am trying to have faith. I know that I need to praise Him even in the midst of this trial. I heard a song on the radio as I was pulling into my housing complex that caused tears to stream down my face. I am going to share it now. I wanted to add it to my profile as a reminder but alas, they don’t have it on their myspace website. But here are the words that convey everything that I am feeling.
Casting Crowns - Praise You In This Storm
From the album Lifesong
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
Chorus:
I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
Chorus:
(2x’s)
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of Heaven and Earth
Chorus:
Label: Reunion Records
I was laid off along with my friend David Berry, and my old supervisor (the one I couldn’t stand! Irony…). Apparently there are two more but I am not positive about who they are. David has been a great support in all this. He’s relieved. He disliked his job too but he has a family and wouldn’t leave on his own either. We both were told this morning and decided to go out to IHOP for breakfast and talk about what we’re going to do now. We’ve decided that we’re going to celebrate our layoffs by going to see the matinee of Pirates of the Caribbean tomorrow! Hehe Seriously, he was all smiles. The waitress at IHOP said to us, “You sure you just got laid off? You two don’t look like you just got laid off!” And honestly we could laugh about it. I really know everything is going to be ok.
As soon as I sat down at my desk I text messaged Sam “I just got laid off” and he called and everything out of his mouth after I confirmed he read it right was “CONGRATULATIONS!” and “Good for you!” with so much enthusiasm, at one point I had to say, “I know you’re happy for me and all, but it’s a bit much… Could you tone it down just a bit? ;) I’m still coming to grips with the fact that I don’t have a job.” And he really was just happy for me because he knows how much I hated the place and how wonderful it is that I’m out from under it. And really, in the long run, I have to agree with him that this really is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. But it doesn’t change the fact that I’m still scared to death about what the future holds.
So there you have it. In one moment my entire life changed. I had NO CLUE! No indications, no rumors, no hunches, no feelings. Just BAM… I no longer have a job. Crazy! But hey! I am a child of God! He will take care of me.
If anyone knows of any job openings please let me know. I am hoping and will focus my job search locally. I really want to get away from the commute and would love to get back to school. Keep me in your prayers, especially that I will continue to give this over to God and trust in Him.
posted by Charity at 7/06/2006 03:12:00 PM 
