So I got home a little bit ago, 10:00pm to be exact! Gotta love holiday traffic! It took almost 2 hours to get home tonight! Ugh…
Today has been an interesting day. I am guessing that the holiday played it’s part but there was something in the air at the office… It was hard to concentrate. We were understaffed and though the phones weren’t going off I found it hard to focus on my projects. I got a surprise visit from my friend Sandeep! He was driving home to Fresno from San Diego and decided to stop by. It was great to see him again! He has been a big supporter in me starting my own photography business. He’s just started a new business called
SiliconScript, Inc. He believes his company can help get me some photography business. I’m looking forward to a trip up north to check out what he does and of course to take pictures! I have another friend who’s starting up a business who may also help get my photography out there but I don’t have confirmation of the plans so I’m gonna hold off till I know for sure she wants to go that route. The rest of the day went smoothly. Most people were out of the office and then everyone left early and at about 3pm I was the only person left in my department. I attempted to get work done but after about 4:30 I was pretty much useless. Hehe
After work I saw how bad the freeway was so I decided to stop by Target to pick up a couple items and then went over to Barnes & Noble to browse through some books and I knew I wanted a new journal. My sister bought me one for Christmas but it is identical to the one I currently have. I decided I wanted to have a different style in between. I love my current journal though so it was hard to find a comparable one but I think I found it. I stopped by the photography section as I always do and happened to notice a couple “how to start a photography business” books and thumbed through them to see if there was something I felt would be helpful. Sure enough there looked to be a lot of great information in them. Some focused on different areas. So I want to talk to Drew who’s helping me with my business plan and stuff and once I get an idea of what aspects he’ll be able to help me with I can narrow down my selections. Though I think I want to buy two of the books no matter what.
I also stumbled across a book that I didn’t know was even in book form, I had known it only as a movie. The Secret! For those of you who have no idea what I’m talking about, this is definitely a unique outlook and though it leans towards some ‘new thought’ rather then on biblical backing it still has a great biblical concept behind it! The movie was recommended to me by my friend Jason. I watched it and was rather impressed. I’ve wanted to watch the movie again and sure enough the moment I walk into Barnes & Noble I see it in the first rack I look at and I picked it up immediately. I read a few pages on my drive home (That should give you an idea of how bad the traffic was!). [Oh and Jason, you recommended that I should read “that one” book and I’m going to have to say you were right! ;)]
I was driving home and frustrated about being stuck in traffic even after attempting to waste time in hopes that it would die down. I wasn’t in the mood for my music which lately seems to be all that I’m into. I felt numb yet moody. That’s when I chose to take out the Secret and start reading it. Immediately I was impacted by how my thoughts were affecting my mood. My focus was wrong. As I read I noticed slight changes in my attitude. The music was making me bouncy again, you know the kind that you have to tap your fingers or do a little dance in your seat? Hehe Well maybe you don’t, but for me it’s a good sign. Then I noticed before I knew it I was further along in the traffic and going faster. All the while my nose in a book glancing every few seconds to make sure I hadn’t allowed too much space between me and the car in front of me.
I only got through 9 pages of the book when I got a call from my good friend Andie… She just bought a car! A 2000 VW beetle, mint green! It’s totally Andie! I’m really happy for her. But we talked about things going on in her life that aren’t going so well. I am so proud of her though! She’s so strong and doing so amazing with everything! It was so cool to catch up with her… I miss her.
I got home and started some laundry and put away some of the stuff I got; I still have a Target bag or two on my bed. Isn’t it amazing how you suddenly have 10 items in your cart when you only went in for 2!?! It didn’t help that I was trying to waste time, but I didn’t get too carried away. The only splurge was a frame for one of my 8x10 prints. And I couldn’t believe that they already had Easter stuff out. Crazy!
So now I’m listening to the Garden State soundtrack. Wanting to ramble and not wanting to move my mouth. Hehe I feel like I’m on a road to self discovery. God’s been revealing a lot to me about myself. I’ve been doing a lot of self evaluation and reading a lot of self help books (i.e.
Approval Addiction by Joyce Meyer,
21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership by John C Maxwell,
Simple-ology by Mark Joyner,
The Secret by Rhonda Byrne,
Mindless Eating by Brian Wansink). I feel like in the last 6 months I’ve been on this upward journey. Prior to that it had been a downward spiral and I think I reached bottom around September and now I’m reaching upward again! I have my moments of standing still to catch my breath but then I keep reaching for more. It’s been hard… There have been a lot of things that I have seen in and about myself that were painful to accept at first… But it’s never so much that I can’t handle it. God is so faithful to be tender about it all. The biggest surprise is that it was all to bring me to a “time such as this”! It’s hard to imagine that I’m exactly where I need to be, but in fact I am! I know that all that I have been through has made me who I am and has brought me to where I am.
Anyways, it’s late. I plan on sleeping in tomorrow but I do have a list of goals I would like to accomplish… Cleaning, uploading my first few versions of my website (crazy stuff!), putting the two pictures of mine that I’ve picked for my living room in frames and hanging them up, I would like to take a long walk, read some more from my Approval Addiction book and whatever else comes up along the way.
Goodnight
Labels: Rambling
posted by Charity at 2/17/2007 12:22:00 AM 
