It’s amazing how a simple statement can affect how you view yourself. I have always had this unhealthy need for approval. I realized last night that it doesn’t matter whether it’s from someone that I care deeply about or not. I could see this issue mostly with people I place high value on. Well last night a fairly new friend said something that made me feel inferior. I say “made me” but in all reality it was a choice to feel that way. It was a hard feeling to fight. I was hurt and took it more personal then I should have. I blame it on the fact that it was late and I was exhausted from my day’s adventures. But again it goes back to my unhealthy need for approval.
Today, church was amazing… Every worship song brought me back to an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ and not to worry or feel that my value rests in someone else’s opinion of who I am. The service just reiterated this concept of letting go of this bondage, mine is the bondage of needing others approval to feel accepted. That there are those times Satan puts up this fake wall, this lie, that I believe is so real that I allow it to keep me from moving forward. Well I’m not going to believe that lie and I am not going to depend on seeing through my natural eyes anymore. I am going to give my need for acceptance over to Christ Jesus who made me exactly who I needed to be and I’m not going to allow other’s shortcomings to determine how I view myself!
There is a fear that I will not succeed but I am not going to let myself get caught up in that. I am free to make this a permanent change and I am choosing to do so now!
Well I was going to leave you some of my favorite pictures of my trip to the Huntington Library but looks like I have run out of time! Hopefully tonight
Labels: Inspiration
posted by Charity at 3/04/2007 01:24:00 PM 
