I haven't been this thankful it's Friday in a LONG time! I have a quiet weekend ahead of me and I'm sooo looking forward to it. This week has been more mellow then most, in fact it's been almost boring! Work has been dead all week.
So dead that I didn't even finish the post at work but watched Transformers instead! ;) hehe Yup that's right, we setup a pc so we could all watch it (we being the girls in support), obviously taking calls as they came in.
It's Saturday and I'm delaying the inevitable... I
MUST clean my bathroom and bedroom! I spent the morning hanging out with my friend Andie. She's been talking about this guy she's crushing on at work and I wanted to meet the guy so we made up a reason for us to stop by her work. hehe And no, we're not still in high school! And yes, we realize this. :) When it comes to best friends' crushes you revert back to high school methods! haha
One thing I've realized in talking to Andie about our fun experiences flirting is that Andie seems to get men to express their attraction! I, on the other hand, seem to flirt with men who don't express their attraction to me at least not overtly. There are signs but nothing is said. So what's up with that? Seriously guys, do I put off a vibe that says please don't let me know that you find me attractive?! Or is it that men are just as insecure in expressing their attraction? I know I'm attractive, though sometimes I wonder if men can actually look past my weight. I grew up feeling that men couldn't. I finally accepted myself for who I am but there are times I still struggle thinking men aren't all that shallow. (Though, I also wonder if I have been given compliments and haven’t really acknowledged them. Hmm… possible) I think a long time ago, when I was in 6th grade, the boy I was seriously crushing on (and had been crushing on since 2nd grade!) read my journal and found out I liked him. I was so embarrassed but went straight up to him and said “ok so I think you’re cute… I’m ok with you knowing this.” And suddenly I wasn’t feeling like I was going to die, and the stark fear went away. Nothing happened either. Since then I’m ok being pretty blunt with the guys I like about my attraction to them without expecting my declaration should require action on their part. I have found it eases the awkwardness of it all (at least for me, and with the men I have shared with, they continued to be in my life). I mean telling someone “hey, I think you’re cute, sexy, attractive (insert chosen compliment here)” is quite harmless. It makes the other person feel good, and it doesn’t mean you’re stuck doing something about it. At least that’s how I look at it. I read my friend Joe’s blog and he replies to this one particular reader’s comments with regular compliments. And I think of how cool it is that he expresses it for the world to read and how awesome it must be for her to read them! I have no idea if anything has ever happened between them and it doesn’t matter. I say keep it up! hehe There are a lot of thoughts going on in my head about this topic and I’m not sure if I’m expressing myself adequately. I’m not sure that I care. It’s just something I wanted to ask the people out there that read my blog. And if, in all this rambling, you’ve lost the question let me rephrase it. What do you think causes men (or women) to express their attraction with the opposite sex or not?
Well I really need to stop avoiding the inevitable and go clean.
Labels: Rambling
posted by Charity at 10/20/2007 04:34:00 PM 
