I am beginning to think I write best at night. During the day there are so many other distractions that you can’t sit and dwell on your internal thoughts.
So here we are, another new year ahead of me. Life is good. Thanks for those of you who commented on my last post. It was pretty hardcore and could have been a bit uncomfortable to read. I hadn’t intended on my last post going so long without another one to explain the outcome of the feelings I felt that night, but my website was having problems. linkLINE took it down and when it was put back up I wasn’t given enough space to make updates.
I think everyone goes through a nostalgic state of remembrance during the New Year. It’s a time to reflect on past situations and new outlooks. I have struggled with a few negative perspectives but overall I have an optimistic expectation to this coming year and what it has to offer.
I was pretty rough on some of the people (men) in my life in my last post. I was looking to them to remind me of who I am. This was my biggest mistake. Luckily that is remedied now. I watched
“the Secret” again. It’s always helpful to get your mind off of the negative and onto something better. I also reviewed
“The Work” by Byron Katie. It poses 4 questions that will help you look at things differently every time! I stopped myself from thinking of the negative things and just imagined myself doing the things that make me happy. This included traveling and taking pictures, this is one of my goals I have set for my life, not just this year.
But speaking of goals, I have a lot of goals set for myself this year. Last year I was on the right track but somewhere after summer I lost sight of where I was going. To be a little more honest then I am used to (I think this is becoming more habit then a rarity), Sam’s engagement caused a lot of internal struggles and insecurities to surface. I thought I was dealing with the emotions well but it appears that I was just projecting them off on other situations. Now that I found the core problem (*
not* Sam’s engagement, something deeper), I was able to face the incorrect outlook and have been moving forward.
Since I have adjusted my mindset I have been pleasantly surprised by the people, friends and even the men in my life! I think because I’ve stopped focusing on the lack but rather the abundance in my life, I am attracting more of that. “What you think about you bring about.” Better yet! Philippians 4:8 “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” I’d rather be thinking about driving up PCH with the windows down and my music blaring then how a friend didn’t treat me the way I wanted to be treated. Which, btw I plan on making that drive this month sometime!
It goes back to the 4 questions… I’ll leave you with them…
- Is it true?
- Can you absolutely know that it's true?
- How do you react when you think that thought?
- Who would you be without the thought?
Labels: Inspiration, Rambling
posted by Charity at 1/01/2008 11:03:00 PM 
