It's 11:30 at night and I have a horrible headache. I came home from work today and crashed at 5:30 and haven't gotten up till now when I realized I needed water in my system and probably a piece of bread so I could take something for this headache. Oh at 8:30 I did get up and get my pjs on and wash my makeup off.
Talk about a pressure filled day. I wouldn't call it stressful, and I finally realize that it was just a lot of pressure. My new position has brought me a lot of decision making along with it. My manager leans on me for advise which feels really good but can also make you humble, "who am I to be helping make these kinds of decisions?". Then we had a meeting in which all chats, personal calls, watching movies, playing games and downloading is prohibited while on the clock anymore because work isn't getting done. This didn't go over too well with a few individuals. So that was pressure. And out of the blue I got asked to be a witness for someone being let go!!!! Just let me say that I hope I'm never in the position to have to fire someone! I was sooooo uncomfortable just even being in the room. It was a horrible feeling. Especially since I knew the girl fairly well and considered her a friend. I even asked why they had to have me, and they wanted a female present just for safety reasons, they need a witness, and well the other female worker was her really close friend so they didn't want to make her do it. So she cried, I cried, and Jason said he needed something (stiff) to drink. It was not a fun experience.
So after all that I'm having a rough day and I find out that my grandpa has taken a turn for the worse and now they want my mom their ASAP, but they don't want her driving but flying and I have to make a decision whether or not I can afford it, and even if I can't will I regret passing up the oportunity on seeing my grandpa for very possibly the last time! Gosh can't life be a little less complicated and pressured?
Well I need to attempt to get back to sleep. 5 am comes early even though I will have slept 12 hours when all is said and done. Man I hope I can kick whatever it is that's trying to get me sick.
Good night.
posted by Charity at 11/19/2003 11:36:00 PM 
