I finally finished the book "A Purpose Driven Life". For some reason I was delaying the last two chapters. I realize how much reading that book helps me focus on the right things. I plan to go through the book again after or during the time that I'm reading "The Five Love Languages". I want to follow through with all the activities and suggestions that book gives. Things to write down, memorize, excersizes, etc.
I sometimes feel that I'm so far from God that I don't know how to get back on the path to get close to him again. I get a glimpse and feel good about that direction and then something blocks my path and wonder off again. It's really frustrating. I want to have a closer relationship with God. I want to depend on him more and not myself because I get too overwhelmed too easily when I do that. Only dependence on God will help me not to get overwhelmed with my life.
In this final chapter, Day 40, I realized that God should be my center but what do I spend most of my time thinking about? Work. I spend most of my day either working on projects while I'm on the clock, and frustrated with everything else about work off of the clock. That can't be right. I need to learn not to focus so soley on my job but enjoy things throughout the day, *while at work* that are not work related. To stop and smell the roses so to speak. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. But what does linkLINE really matter in the grand scheme of things? It's just a job. I'm sure I'll have many more in my lifetime. Is linkLINE really worth all the worry and stress? I mean look back at how many posts there are of me complaining about work!? Something's just not right there.
Tonight I wrote my 'thank you' letter to send off with the individual thank you cards. I finally finished something that has been on my 'To Do's' since I've been back from Africa! That's quite a long time to have taken to accomplish that. It feels good to be done. And actually I finished 2 on my list! I've completed "A Purpose Driven Life" and now the 'Thank You' letter! I have a cerfew to catch in 10 minutes because I'm doing yet another 'To Do' which is waking up at 4:30 and going to the gym which I have started back up since I completed housesitting and I feel great! My parents are on weightwatchers so there is nothing but good food to eat around the house. God is answering my prayers for help. I have so many things I want to accomplish that I get overwhelmed. But as anyone knows but rarely does, if you just take one day at a time you can accomplish everything you need to. So I have a list of 'To Do's' that I'm sure will change but for now I can check 2 things off of it. :)
Well it's my bed time and I need to clean off my makeup.
Goodnight
CD Player: INXS "The Greatest Hits"
Mood: Glad to have accomplished something
Link for the day:
My pictures of Africa
posted by Charity at 6/30/2004 09:38:00 PM 
